Theres a huge stigma around men not being allowed to cry or get upset because its not 'manly' actually thing is crying is human. Emotions are human. Men are human. Men can have mental illnesses just as much as any other gender can and they are allowed to talk about it without feeling 'weak'. If someone judges you for crying then the problem is not with you it is with them. Feel emotions and dont pretend like you're not feeling them just because you're scared of judgement. Don't suffer in silence you are allowed to talk about it.